.drink, pee, repeat.

so it's been a week since i last wrote - it's been a little crazy over here getting ready for christmas and a baby.  but, i'm back!


to update, i think that my little monster has turned around into the proper position, because my bladder is, umm, active...like, super turbo active.  let's hope so, anyway, i will have another appt. with my midwife on wednesday to find out.  fingers crossed!!


so this is how it goes - i seriously can't get enough water!  i drink it all day everyday, and that's pretty much all i drink except for the occasional cup of tea (i love england!), a shake, or if i juice something.  besides that, it is H20 all the way.  (ok, ok, i have had like 2 bottles of coke randomly since i have been here...but it was BOTTLES!!!  the best!!!)


anyway, it seems that drinking lots of water makes you have to pee - who knew?!  jk.  put that together with being pregnant, and it's worse.  put that together with being LATE in your pregnancy, and it is almost comical!  i get up through the night, i pretty much pee every 30 mins, and almost always feel like i could pee due to my little man tap dancing on my bladder (let's hope he is actually head butting it though).


ok, and this is totally t.m.i., but that's ok, because this is my blog, and i will say what i want...lol but even when i am done peeing, have wiped, whatever - sometimes (ok, most of the time) i go to get up, and more pee comes out!  that shit ain't funny!  ok, it is, especially if you pee on yourself accidentally.  and i am not too proud to say that the other day i peed on my own foot.  i was at home THANK GOD! but i was barefoot...it was totally gross, but i couldn't have helped it if i tried!  not a lot of pee, just a dribble (so gross).  some of you will be shaking your heads, remembering the days...and some of you will be sitting in horror, deciding that you don't want to have a baby EVER.  


don't fear too much, you learn how to cope with these special little things that your body does to drive you insane during pregnancy.  for example, i do this awesome side, front lean when i think i am done, and usually this maneuver pushes more out...not sure why or how, but i am thankful.


here are a couple of images of my belly today - i am absolutely HUGE!  i know the quality is terrible (especially for a photographer), but they are from photobooth on my mac book pro.  i just wanted a little instant gratification...

xx

.first things first.

my first post!  


i guess i should introduce myself - i am maria, a 30-year old photographer from los angeles.  recently, my husband and i moved to england to be closer to his family, and raise our own family...that's where the pregnant stuff comes in.  i am expecting our first child - a baby boy - on january 9th, 2011.  we are naming him jackson christopher, and couldn't be more excited to welcome him into the world...i said excited, not ready.


how terrifying is it to become a parent for the first time?!  i mean, having the responsibility to name a human is enough, let alone the responsibility of guiding this little human into a happy, well adjusted, successful adult.  it's enough to make you cringe - you question if you, yourself are a happy, well adjusted, successful adult. 
well, are you?  am i?  uh, sort of..


once you get past the initial shock, then you get happy, and then you get terrified again, and this is the cycle.  currently, i am in happyville - this could change at any time. now don't get me wrong, i am happy and excited all the time about having a little miracle to call my own, but the sheer terror i speak of can take the lead at any given moment.  like when you think about "omg, how the HELL do i use this nose frida thing?!  wait, i have to literally suck the snot out of this tube??" or "how will i know if there is something seriously wrong with him - am i gonna be one of those psycho moms who hover over the crib?!" to even as simple as "which freakin humidifier do i get - the cool mist that could have more bacteria, or the warm one, which kills bacteria, but could be dangerous because it heats up.....and let's not even talk about the noise it makes, the percentage of humidity it puts out, and how difficult it is to clean the damn thing!"


i mean, having a baby is intense!


and people, can we talk about what goes on with our bodies for a sec....i'm just sayin


so, this will be a journal.  a memoir of my time as a 30 year old, pregnant first-timer. i am hoping it won't stop there, either.  i hope to continue once jax is born, so i can tell you what it's like to have bodily fluids on you all the time, and how to combat a tired, crying, stubborn 2-year old.


bear with me, it could get bumpy!  i am hoping that some of you will be able to relate, or if you find yourself knocked up and terrified - you will see that you are not alone.  and if you aren't pregnant, or a guy, i hope it helps you understand what we go through, deal with, and can find it as funny as i do - (most of the time).


i leave you with a picture of our first ultrasound - when jackson was just a peanut, seahorse, alien creature.  (he was totally cute even then).

and a picture of me taken the same day as the ultrasound (i was already about 3 months here)

notice my little boobies - haha, not anymore!  i hope i get to keep em!


xx